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Wednesday Morning Observations
December 18, 2024
Sometimes a beautiful sunrise does not make you feel better.
Is accepting the fact that I need meds to feel normal or happy the same as giving up?
Where is the balance between being too selfish with our time and too giving with our time?
Jesus said we must lose our lives to follow Him. Why would God put us in this world to live, but then tell us that enjoying the things of this world is selfish and/or sinful? It’s always explained away with reminders that we live in a fallen world, and we have free will that allows us to make bad choices. I want to live a life that pleases God, but sometimes that feels like choosing the path with the most struggle and the least peace. But Jesus tells us the He came so we can have peace in Him.
I don’t feel very much peace right now.
My brain doesn’t like all these contradictions.
I am thankful that my destiny in Heaven is only conditioned on my acceptance and faith in Christ and His work on the cross. If my salvation were dependent on my life, then I would surely be lost. I am too selfish to deserve a place in Heaven. When I am not being selfish, I feel angry about the sacrifice I am making. Not always, but sometimes. I am human.
I love helping others, but I don’t want to be doing it twenty-four hours a day. Sometimes I just want to do what I want.
And I don’t want a preacher or anybody else telling me that I am a worthless human being because I have basic human desires that God gave me. If those desires are sinful, then why did God build them into my very existence?
